Sunday, January 26, 2014


Praise the Lord everybody! because He is worthy to be praised! I think we all know that God does not need a Lawyer for anything because who can accuse or defend The creator of all things, Lord God Almighty, The Alpha and the Omega and The Great I AM. But Man is always looking to engage the services of a lawyer for one reason or another to defend him, fight for his rights or get justice for him. The last place that you should find Lawyers though is in the Body of Christ, I should know because I was one.

The reason I called myself a lawyer was because I could mount a vigorous defensive argument to justify any of my behaviors that were called into question, in other words I was always right in my own eyes. The bible says in Proverbs 16:2  All the ways of a man are clean in his own eyes; but the Lord weigheth the spirits.

In my mind I had a good reason to do everything I did and I had the verbal skills to make others come around to my way of thinking or at least create "reasonable doubt". I was my own greatest defense lawyer and I served myself well through High School and College team sports. I was always pleading my case to my coaches. I lawyer'd my way through drug addiction and life until one day I got tired of it all and God touched my heart and said "You are guilty my son" and I broke down and accepted my guilt and asked God to come into my life and change me, I got saved.

I wish I could say that after that I lived happily ever after but I can't. For awhile I served Him, cleaned up my act and went into full time ministry. but After awhile the lawyer in me resurfaced. I knew I was guilty but the number of things I was guilty of began to shrink in my sight as I left full time ministry and went back into the working world resuming my nursing career. I began to see things as the world See's things rather than how God See's them. I began to plead my cases to the Holy Spirit, trying to convince Him and myself mostly why I should be found "Not Guilty" for some transgression I had committed.

One thing I've learned is you can't make a plea deal with the Holy Ghost who's job it is to convict us of sin and lead us into all truth. A lawyer knows the law and his job is to manipulate it to his clients advantage and  being my own client that's just what I did. Thanks be to God for a moment of clarity. There is no room in Christ for the "self righteous". The word says in Romans 3:9+10 9 What then? are we better than they? No, in no wise: for we have before proved both Jews and Gentiles, that they are all under sin;
10 As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one:

God can't use a self righteous vessel. once we realize we are "born in sin and shaped in iniquity" and all our "works are as filthy rags" to God, It's time to realize you can't out talk, think or cross examine the Holy Ghost. I had to humble myself and remember who I was and who God was and is. There is no compromise in living Holy. You can't talk your way around it. So now the only pleading I do is Plead the blood of Jesus and ask God to forgive me of my sins as I repent of and not defend my sins.

No lawyer on earth can justify or erase your sin and get you off the hook, only faith in Christ and true repentance. Next time you want to plead your own case plead the blood of Jesus instead. 

             God bless you All, Brother Darrell, Speaking Off The Wall

Tuesday, January 14, 2014


Praise the Lord everybody!! because He alone is worthy, for He has done great things! His praise shall be continually in my mouth. In my last post I talked about my new attitude for 2014. I am determined to put ALL my trust in God. There comes a time when we have to stop worrying about the myriad of possibilities that could befall us in our day to day lives, all the pit falls and worst case scenarios and just TRUST GOD!

God has made certain promises to His people, So if you are counted as one of His people we have to trust that He Will keep those promises. He has promised to provide for our every need. His word says in  Numbers 23:19
King James Version (KJV)
19 God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?

Fear, Worry and Anxiety should not be a part of the lives of the Believer, yet often times it is. I can remember many sleepless nights in the past, especially when I was homeless and living in a New York City shelter. They used to threaten every so often to send me to a homeless camp in up-state New York somewhere, a three hour ride from the city and my family and my doctors. At the time I was trying to get on disability and spent a lot of time seeing doctors. Many times I would receive notices on my cot at night telling me I was being shipped up-state in the morning and I would stay up all night worrying and planning. then I would  head down to see an advocate at the Coalition for The Homeless first thing that morning. They would come and stop it. Now God had already told me not to worry because He was not going to let that happen months ago yet I would stay up worrying every time. I DID NOT TRUST GOD!!

For years I had trusted in myself because man had repeatedly let me down. Then along comes God, He saves me, delivers me from drugs and sets me on a new path. Then He asks me to trust Him, in all things. This sounds good and is easy at first after all He delivered you from death to life both physically and spiritually and everything is Rosy. Then the storm hits, you lose your job, maybe you get sick or relapse or someone you love dies, suddenly life slaps you upside your head and says "SNAP OUT OF IT!! WHO'S YOUR DADDY?" who do you trust then? Do you fall back on the arm of the flesh? saying "I have my degrees, my connections, I'll just make a call, I'll just sit down with my people, we will work out a plan.

Or do you go to your Father in heaven, Abba Father and put it in His hands, trusting Him to guide you and work things out. I am in the midst of a trial right now that seems to have no end but I sleep well at night because I put my trust in Him. Psalms 4: 5-8 states  5 Offer the sacrifices of righteousness, and put your trust in the Lord.

6 There be many that say, Who will shew us any good? Lord, lift thou up the light of thy countenance upon us.

7 Thou hast put gladness in my heart, more than in the time that their corn and their wine increased.

8 I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, Lord, only makest me dwell in safety.

We have his word to encourage us!! God can't lie!!, we all have a testimony of His movements on our behalf. What more do we need? If you know Gods word it is your lifeline to peace of mind. I had to go against my carnal nature to trust in myself when things got bad and humble myself and realize there was someone more trust worthy than all my degrees and knowledge put together, It is Lord God almighty, maker of heaven and earth who better to trust in? Let us stop giving lip service to God and really trust Him in ALL things because He is who He is.

                       God bless you all, Brother Darrell, Speaking Off The Wall

Wednesday, January 1, 2014


Praise the Lord everybody for He alone is worthy!! And Happy New Year!! As I sit back and take stock of the year 2013 I see that with all the trials and tribulations
God has brought me from a mighty long way. I have learned to accept what God allows, to trust in Him totally. I find that when I tell some of my fellow Brothers and Sisters in Christ this they Look at me as if I am speaking another language. They can't seem to rap their minds around the fact that God would allow that to happen to a "good" Christian, but first of all, who is "good?"
 even Jesus said not to call Him good in Matthew 19:16-17
King James Version (KJV)
16 And, behold, one came and said unto him, Good Master, what good thing shall I do, that I may have eternal life?

17 And he said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God: but if thou wilt enter into life, keep the commandments. 

Trials don't stop coming because you are "good." I am not cursed accept for the curse of being born in sin and shaped in iniquity just like everyone else. I am not practicing secrete sin but I struggle everyday to do what is right in the eyes of God because I am still just a man of flesh and bone.

I believe these trials have come to prove and purge me as God is preparing me to take me to another Level for His usage. He is not releasing finances so that I can learn to trust Him for everything no matter what. He is not releasing healing so I can learn to press my way through by faith and He sometimes incarcerates me at home so that I can know that He is all that I need and when He wants to get my full attention.

I'm like Job now who said in Job 13:14-16
King James Version (KJV)
14 Wherefore do I take my flesh in my teeth, and put my life in mine hand?

15 Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him.

16 He also shall be my salvation: for an hypocrite shall not come before him.

We Christians sometimes say and claim a lot of things to each other out of habit or just because it sounds like the right thing to say but when we are alone what are we doing and saying. I say "I trust God", I say "I love the Lord," I sing "Victory in Jesus!" and "there is power in the blood" but are we walking in "power" and in "victory" when It's only you and God. When trials come on every hand do you really "feel like Going on?" God has got me in a place now where I trust him no matter what, I love him no matter what, and I praise Him no matter what!

This year I not only want to be able to quote scripture but I want to live scripture.

If a man of God can make his own New Years resolution the I resolve to love Him more, trust Him more, be more attentive and obedient to Him in all my ways.
If I do these things how can I go wrong? PURE AND SIMPLE!

 HAPPY NEW YEAR! God bless you all, Brother Darrell, Speaking Off The Wall