"KEEPING IT REAL!" IN THE BODY OF CHRIST.

Praise the Lord everybody The Lord our God, the Lord is one! He alone is worthy to be praised! I pray you all are enjoying God's blessing. My wife and I are counting our blessings and trusting God as He deals with us each in different ways. I am currently on a consecration that I am modeling after Jacob because like him I'm not letting go until God blesses us. I'm prepared to consecrate as long as it takes for Him to move concerning our situation. I'm asking everyone to keep me in prayer as I seek God for relief from our trials.


"I'm just keeping it real!"
I hear Christians say that all the time after they use vulgar language or say something to somebody that they had no business saying, something meant to hurt rather than heal, something non edifying and sinful in God.s eyes. I have heard Christian parents tell their children, " your going to be tempted by many things and if you can't help yourself when exploring your sexuality then use protection if you have sex, and if your going to smoke weed or drink do it here in the basement with your friends so I can keep an eye on you." I've even heard Christians condone abortion saying "what if the girl or woman had no visible means of support, is in school or was raped?" I've even heard some say "I'm not supporting or raising no more babies so you better go get it taken care of, the last thing the world and you need is another welfare mother!" "I'm just keeping it real!" they say when confronted by another Christian. This is their excuse for condoning sin. "I'm just trying to face reality" they say "just keeping it real!"


To the World all these things sound reasonable, like the homosexual argument, they say "surely if two people love each other regardless of what sex they are God will understand, doesn't the word say that love conquers a multitude of sin?" they ask as they take God's word out of context and misinterpret it. God is a loving God but He is also a JUST God. The Bible says in Romans 6:23   23 For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.  THAT IS REALITY!
When we tell ourselves or our children that sometimes it's alright to sin depending on the circumstances we are condemning them and ourselves to death.

Jesus said "I am they way the truth and the light" that is keeping it real, God's word also says in Proverbs 16:25   25 There is a way that seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death.

"Keeping it real" is just another way of compromising and diluting God's word and laws. God's word has suffered 2000 years of erosion by man and the world, let's not add to it. We don't have to change God's word to fit the times, we have to change the times to fit God's word.

          God bless you all, Brother Darrell, Speaking Off The Wall

LIVING WITH THE ENEMY: THE FLESH, THE DEVIL AND ME

Praise the Lord everybody! For He is worthy to be praised! I pray you all are enjoying God's blessing. I know I am blessed just to be writing this in the comfort of my own home and not from the Public Library or some shelter and Like the "old timers" like to say "Clothed in my right mind and all my faculties in order" yet I know the reason I am not enjoying all the things God has for me is because of my other worst enemy, Myself!

a comic book character once said regarding the environment "WE HAVE MET THE ENEMY AND HE IS US!"  Some times we must look at the man in the mirror, some times we are our own worst enemy. The devil didn't always make me do it. I have been in rehabs and programs fourteen times before God brought me out but the trials I'm going through now are on that level. They are on that level because the problem is not an outside force, it is me, my flesh. My flesh has always been with me. From a child crying out for food and attention to an adult seeking to satisfy it's unending demands. It can be an epic struggle, our flesh against the Holy Spirit of God. Jesus said "... the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak." in Matthew 6: 41

Paul speaks often about the burden of the flesh and in Romans 8:1-13 states  8 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
2 For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.
3 For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh:

4 That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
5 For they that are after the flesh do mind the things of the flesh; but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit.
6 For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.

7 Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be.
8 So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God.
9 But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his.

10 And if Christ be in you, the body is dead because of sin; but the Spirit is life because of righteousness.

11 But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you.

12 Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh.

13 For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live.

If we want to live in Christ we must die to our flesh. We can't kill it because as long as we are alive we have to carry it around with us, no we must die to it so when the flesh comes knocking at your door with sin as it's companion the Holy Ghost will answer and say "The person you are looking for no longer LIVES, here.
My flesh has been my cross that I must take up daily throughout my life, it dragged me through pornography, fornication and drug addiction and that was before I knew it even existed. Once I Got saved and found out what I was up against I realized it was not only the devil that I had to be aware of.

God has delivered me and continues to deliver me each and every day. God has fortified my house to keep out the enemy but I must make sure all the windows and doors are locked. When my flesh tries to open up a window and let the enemy in so it can be satisfied I must call on Holy Ghost maintenance to come and check the locks.

My Brothers and sisters the flesh is not your friend, it is a burden we must carry until that day we receive our glorified bodies, feed the spirit of God in you and not your flesh. I will continue this in my next post.

          God bless you all, Brother Darrell, Speaking Off The Wall

ECCLESIASTES 4: 5       

"PASTOR CAN YOU TONE THAT DOWN A LITTLE!!"

Praise the Lord everybody! everybody praise His holy name! I pray everyone is enjoying God's blessing, Oh taste and see that the Lord is good. his praises shall forever be in my mouth! I'll tell you why, because He has done great things in my life. He has gotten me back on my feet and even though I'm not totally back to where I was I am well on my way. By the time you read this I hope to have ventured forth from my home for the first time in almost four months. My wife and I both appreciate your prayers concerning us and some of the trials we have been experiencing this past few years.

Through it all God has been faithful regarding His ministry, Speaking Off The Wall. Giving me eyes to see and giving me what to write concerning the Body of Christ. Lately I have seen Preachers and Pastors like my own Pastor who preach about living holy and forsaking sin, no matter if that sin is homosexuality, fornication, lying or stealing. They are preaching Holy Ghost messages straight from the Throne and heart of God. Yet their Churches are not thriving, people are leaving and going where they can hear a more "user friendly" message just like the children of Israel in Deuteronomy chapter five.

Deuteronomy. 5:22-27    22 These words the Lord spake unto all your assembly in the mount out of the midst of the fire, of the cloud, and of the thick darkness, with a great voice: and he added no more. And he wrote them in two tables of stone, and delivered them unto me.

23 And it came to pass, when ye heard the voice out of the midst of the darkness, (for the mountain did burn with fire,) that ye came near unto me, even all the heads of your tribes, and your elders;

24 And ye said, Behold, the Lord our God hath shewed us his glory and his greatness, and we have heard his voice out of the midst of the fire: we have seen this day that God doth talk with man, and he liveth.

25 Now therefore why should we die? for this great fire will consume us: if we hear the voice of the Lord our God any more, then we shall die.

26 For who is there of all flesh, that hath heard the voice of the living God speaking out of the midst of the fire, as we have, and lived? 27 Go thou near, and hear all that the Lord our God shall say: and speak thou unto us all that the Lord our God shall speak unto thee; and we will hear it, and do it.

They could not stand before God and His Holy glory because in their hearts they knew that they were carrying with them the idols and sin they picked up in captivity and they were not willing to forsake them. They knew that no flesh could stand before God and live and they wanted to continue to feed their flesh and not die to it. They were hoping that the shear holiness of His glory would get lost in translation. "You speak to God and then you speak to us for Him so that we don't have to die!" meaning die to their sin.

God is raising up a remnant of Holy men of God, Holy Ghost filled and uncompromising to preach to his people. Preaching with power and authority and the convicting power of the Holy Ghost. Now just as then there are those who count themselves as part of the body of Christ, Christians, who when they hear the anointed word of God coming from the pulpit with conviction and power they refuse to die but rather they say " Good word Pastor, that's telling them!" and continue on in their sin, or they say "Pastor can't you tone all that fire and brimstone down God is a God of love." Others just up and leave saying "It doesn't take all that, God knows my heart." 

Even though the Children of Israel said they would do everything that God would tell them through Moses God knew better and said in verse 29, 29 O that there were such an heart in them, that they would fear me, and keep all my commandments always, that it might be well with them, and with their children for ever!

News flash! We must be willing to forsake our flesh and die to sin, God has called us to that. Paul said "I die daily" The things that Paul went through he could not do in his flesh. He had to die to self
 We must not run from the Holiness and majesty of God and the convicting power of his spirit and word but embrace it, asking God to deliver us from our secret sin, to help us mortify our flesh and appreciate the Godly sorrow we feel when we fall short of the mark.
You Holy Ghost Pastors keep preaching Holy Ghost fire until that day when God closes your mouth and says "well done".

             God bless you all, Brother Darrell, Speaking Off The Wall

I AM SIMON OF CYRENE

Praise the Lord, I first posted this at this time the last two years and I was blessed by the response. During this time of prayer and reflection I was moved to re post it this year. To God be the glory.



Praise the Lord everybody! I pray everyone is enjoying these holy days leading up to Resurrection Sunday. These are days of wonder, days to look back in retrospect at what Jesus did for us. The other night I was watching the "Passion of the Christ" and as I watched I was again appalled by the brutality of His death. I also was intrigued by the plight of Simon of Cyrene who helped Jesus carry His cross. As I meditated on it I was moved to write the following account as seen through Simon's eyes. Luke 23:26
26 As the soldiers led him away, they seized Simon from Cyrene, who was on his way in from the country, and put the cross on him and made him carry it behind Jesus. 27


I am Simon of Cyrene and a heartbreaking but wonderful thing happened to me on a  Friday many years ago as I entered the city. There were crowds everywhere and as I neared the via Dolorosa I heard the sound of woman weeping and wailing mixed with the shouts of men.I could not see to whom or to what all this emotion was directed, so I pressed in closer to get a better view.

It was then that I saw this large wooden cross that seemed to be dragging itself down the stone covered street surrounded by Roman soldiers. I said to myself "how is it that the cross moves?" Then I saw Him, half  hidden by the cross bar a bowed and bloody figure stumbling under it's burden. Blood was pooled in his every foot print as He grunted and groaned with His every step. Every part of him I could see was ripped and bruised, His flesh hung in ribbons.

As I detachedly watched, the agonizingly slow procession I was suddenly thrust into the surreal scene when I heard a voice loudly growl "YOU!! YES YOU! COME HERE AND HELP HIM CARRY HIS LAST BURDEN!" as the soldiers laughed, I hesitated and started to protest, then I thought about running but thought the better of it.
As I approached this poor soul I could feel his pain and anguish, it was weird. I sped up to avoid the lash and arrived at his side just in time as he fell into me placing all his weight and that of the cross on me. I summoned all my strength and somehow kept us both upright.

Just like that I found myself going from onlooker to the eye of the storm, surrounded by a whirlwind of emotions. As I joined in this obvious death march I was conflicted as I looked upon Priest and Pharisees and other devout men cursing this man yelling "blasphemer!! Crucify him!!" as they spit at us as I now shared in his shame. I thought to myself "my God what has he done to deserve this?"

At that point he lifted up his eyes to me and I saw tears, not tears of anger or pain but tears of compassion FOR ME!! FOR ME! OF ALL THINGS!  he was concerned for me even as he was suffering in what was undoubtedly his final moments. He looked at me and never said a word but that look said it all.
He then righted himself and continued on ahead of me leading me and his cross toward Golgotha the hill where hey liked to crucify and leave them hanging to be seen by everyone as an example. He could barely carry his own weight and as we drew nearer stumbled again and again, finally I dragged Him, myself and the cross to the top of the hill.

"OK you can go on your way now!" barked the Centurion as they began to unload the hammers and the nails. They grabbed him out of my grasp and though I wanted to turn and run away I reached out to Him and asked "Who are you?" but He did not speak but again I felt his compassion as I finally turned and walked away covered in his blood. One of the soldiers cried out "YOU SHOULD BE HONORED, He CLAIMS TO BE A KING! KING OF THE JEWS!"

As I walked away I tried to wipe his blood from my person but I am glad I was unsuccessful, even though you can't see it anymore it is always there and the man whose name I did not know, three days later rose from the dead, I know Him now as Jesus the Christ my Lord and my Savior.
                     God bless you all, Simon of Cyrene

     I KNOW IT WAS THE BLOOD!   BROTHER DARRELL, A WATCHMAN

ROLLING IN THE DEEP : OURS IS NOT TO QUESTION WHY

Praise the Lord everybody! because He alone is worthy to be praised! I pray everyone is enjoying God's blessing. God has blessed me these last few days, after months of sciatica pain to the point where I could not sit up to eat. The pain is sixty percent better and I can actually get up and walk around and exercise a little. Praise the living God! My legs are a little weak after months of inactivity and weight gain but I have begun to rehab them now by God's grace.

I am still having to fight for my home and my pension, my wife is still ill with an undiagnosed illness and still needs insurance and Disability to come through but our faith and trust remains in the Lord. When everyone including my wife thought I should go to the hospital I knew it was only a matter of time before God would raise me up off my bed of affliction. Hallelujah!!

I have in the last three years been faced with many afflictions, trials and tribulations, Some were brought on by myself. There is a price to be paid to earn God's trust in ministry and there is a price to be paid for disobedience. I am paying for both. Like Jonah there were assignments given me that I did not finish and some I did not start. There were doors opened I did not enter and doors closed I tried to go through. There were gifts given and ministries ordained. I like Jonah even in my chastening remembered the Lord chastens those He loves and I like Jonah cried out to the Lord.

Jonah 2: 1-9
Then Jonah prayed unto the Lord his God out of the fish's belly,

2 And said, I cried by reason of mine affliction unto the Lord, and he heard me; out of the belly of hell cried I, and thou heardest my voice.

3 For thou hadst cast me into the deep, in the midst of the seas; and the floods compassed me about: all thy billows and thy waves passed over me.

4 Then I said, I am cast out of thy sight; yet I will look again toward thy holy temple.

5 The waters compassed me about, even to the soul: the depth closed me round about, the weeds were wrapped about my head.

6 I went down to the bottoms of the mountains; the earth with her bars was about me for ever: yet hast thou brought up my life from corruption, O Lord my God.

7 When my soul fainted within me I remembered the Lord: and my prayer came in unto thee, into thine holy temple.

8 They that observe lying vanities forsake their own mercy.

9 But I will sacrifice unto thee with the voice of thanksgiving; I will pay that that I have vowed. Salvation is of the Lord

I know what it is like to be cast into the deep because of my own shortcomings. Then swallowed up by situations beyond my control. I know how it feels to have your friends and family start to look at you funny because they cannot comprehend how or why God has allowed these things to happen to you. Yet my hope and my trust remains in Him. I know I can call upon Him and He will hear me. I do not ask Why this has happened but ask "What must I do on my part?" and He instructs me and guides me and leads me out of the deep.

When God plants my feet back on solid ground I am a stronger, wiser man with a testimony that is even stronger than ever. When things were at their worst and it looked like I might need back surgery or worse I consecrated unto the Lord. I asked Him to heal me one more time and if He did, this time I would do my part and take better care of my body through diet and most importantly proper exercise to strengthen my legs and back. Since then my back is sixty percent better and improving every day and His spirit has led me to find some new sciatica exercises on line that have been a great help, God is faithful!

I am looking forward to going to church next week and being back in the thick of things where God wants me to be, better equipped and ready to do battle.
Next time you find yourself Rolling in the deep remember the words of Jonah, cry loud and don't ask why, ask "What would you have me do Lord?"

          God bless you all, Brother Darrell, Speaking Off The Wall

CHURCH OR JESUS FACTORY: ARE WE MASS PRODUCING CHRISTIANITY?

Praise the Lord everybody! He alone is worthy to be praised! I pray everyone is enjoying God's blessing, I know I am no matter how many times the enemy says I am not. The enemy is trying to strip me of health, wealth and even the roof over my head but I know God still has my back. He is allowing these things for a reason. God will and has given me the strength to make it through this and whatever else might come my way.

The other night God had me up in the middle of the night praying and as usual He began to speak to my spirit saying "Christianity is not a product!" and he began to make it clear to me that we the Church must stop treating Christ and Christianity as a commodity, something that can be prepackaged, branded and advertised on T.V. and in magazines with Preachers as pitchmen and celebrity endorsers. It cannot be mass produced, but is based on a series of one on one relationships with the ultimate relationship being the one with our Lord Jesus Christ.

The book of Acts chronicles the history of the Church and it's formation and breaks down these relationships in Acts chapter 2 verses 36 - 47   36 Therefore let all the house of Israel know assuredly, that God hath made the same Jesus, whom ye have crucified, both Lord and Christ.
37 Now when they heard this, they were pricked in their heart, and said unto Peter and to the rest of the apostles, Men and brethren, what shall we do?

38 Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.
39 For the promise is unto you, and to your children, and to all that are afar off, even as many as the Lord our God shall call.

40 And with many other words did he testify and exhort, saying, Save yourselves from this untoward generation.
41 Then they that gladly received his word were baptized: and the same day there were added unto them about three thousand souls.

42 And they continued steadfastly in the apostles' doctrine and fellowship, and in breaking of bread, and in prayers.
43 And fear came upon every soul: and many wonders and signs were done by the apostles.
44 And all that believed were together, and had all things common;

45 And sold their possessions and goods, and parted them to all men, as every man had need.
46 And they, continuing daily with one accord in the temple, and breaking bread from house to house, did eat their meat with gladness and singleness of heart,
47 Praising God, and having favour with all the people. And the Lord added to the church daily such as should be saved.

Preacher, perspective convert, new convert, Pastor and Brothers and sisters in Christ we all must know, trust and fellowship and grow together through our personal relationships with Christ and each other. The word of God also says in 1st Thessalonians 5:12, 13 12 And we beseech you, brethren, to know them which labour among you, and are over you in the Lord, and admonish you;

13 And to esteem them very highly in love for their work's sake. And be at peace among yourselves.

Brothers and Sisters do we want to be estranged dysfunctional family members or do we want to KNOW one another and not just in name only. The early church pulled together in love, breaking bread from home to home sharing one with another. It's not about Filling mega churches and stadiums where no one knows anybody. God is calling us into fellowship with Him and each other. Jesus said we will be known by our "love one for another". We need to stop mega-plying and self aggrandizing and start esteeming others over ourselves and sharing the love of Christ. Churches are not private clubs! In God's house anyone can find a friend.
            God bless you all, Brother Darrell, Speaking Off The Wall 

THE HANDS OF A FISHERMAN

Praise the Lord everybody! because He alone is worthy to be praised!! I truly pray that everyone is enjoying God's blessing. The last few days have been good for me because my sciatica is starting to show some improvement and I'm believing God that I'll be able to go to church before the month is out. IN JESUS NAME!!
 I was meditating today on something Pastor Green(First Church of Christ Holiness) posted today on Facebook about Christian Soldiers and those who would pose as Soldiers in the army of the Lord. This is my favorite analogy of who we Christians are and I have many early post that attest to that. Then I began to think of another analogy that Christ Himself used in Matthew 4:18-19 18 And Jesus, walking by the sea of Galilee, saw two brethren, Simon called Peter, and Andrew his brother, casting a net into the sea: for they were fishers.

19 And he saith unto them, Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.  

We are not only soldiers in the Army of God but we are also called to be Fishers of men. In order to build an army, you must go out and recruit. When I think about fishermen back then I think of strong, rugged types, hard-working men with big strong hands, gnarly and scarred from hauling up nets and wrestling with fish all day at times to bring them in, and Sometimes they would have to launch out into the deep waters where other men feared to tread to make their catch. That's also how I see Fishers of men. This is not for the wimpy, in the natural or in the spirit.

There is not a lot real fishing going on these days. Megachurches are just like today's mega fishing boats that just sail out to a spot and just suck up hundreds, thousands of fish at a time and process, package and freeze them all before reaching shore. Today's churches just invite everyone to come up and be "saved" walk them through a prayer, give them some literature and slap the label "Christian" on them and send them on their way. Where are the gnarled, scarred hands from doing the work of discipleship, launching out into the deep to pull in the deep running fish like addicts, alcoholics and the homeless? those who have nothing to tithe but still need Jesus and His cleansing life-changing word. Jesus told his Disciples in John 15:3 Now ye are clean through the word which I have spoken unto you. 

Are today's churches just large processing plants turning out canned or prepackaged Christianity? Once the meeting is over and everyone starts heading there own way who is making sure the new convert is alright and comfortable with what just happened? Who is reaching out? When is the fisherman through with his catch? He has to keep them fresh and viable until they are ready to be sold at market.
We must prepare our "catch" for the market, the world market where they will be seen and observed. The well prepared go on to bring in there own "catch" because what they have is appealing to those in the world who are hungry and thirsty for righteousness.

The hands of Fishers of Men should not soft from lack of work or effort but the bumps, the bruises, and the callouses should be soothed by the Balm of Gilead, the love of Jesus Christ. The job of the fisherman just like the hands of a fisherman is rough but what we do for God is nothing in comparison to what He has done, doing and will do for us.

               God bless you all, Brother Darrell, Speaking Off The Wall